Carla-Pequini

Ok, now I'm not scared anymore. In fact, I don't know what I feel exactly. I have the power to make you feel really good and really bad, and I do both. Wasn't I supposed to do only one? The good feeling, preferably. I don't know how to control it. I was trying to make me accept myself finding justifications as: -> I never had a happy relacionship -> I'm emotional -> yes, that's all I got kk I think I don't know how to be in a relacionship, and maybe I shouldn't be in one. I don't have the money to be in one, I don't make you happy all the time (your twitter is there to show for everybody it) and I'm not like her, and unfortun

So, this is my first journal, and I'm talking in english, which isn't my mother language, so I may commit a lot of mistakes. Anyway, I need to talk right now, and here can be a good place, since I think no one will see or get it x) I was writing my stars about what made me happy in those last days, and they are so crowded. And this is supposed to be good, but I'm so scared. It just seems that everything will end. I fear I'll disappoint him everytime. And I'm really trying to show everything about me (mainly the bad things) for him to be sure that I'm what he wants, but even though I fear. Am I? Can he understand my fear? I haven't done a l